Back Story

This post was written to a prior blog, dated January 2, 2009 and titled "Unwelcome".

"I feel like a stranger in my own home. I feel like my mom’s more into dating and going out than spending time with me, who only gets to come home every six months. I feel like she’s the 22 year old and I’m the mom. It’s my last night here and she was planning on going out with this missionary guy tonight. And this is after I was home all by myself last night because everyone was too busy to spend time with me. Typing that makes me sound so ridiculous and insecure, but that’s really how I felt. The only reason she’s not going is because I said something. But really, should I have to say something to get my own mother to hang out with me on my last night in town for six months?

I know my family is far from perfect, but I really wish we could at least try and spend time together. That would make me feel a lot better… Instead of everyone just living their own separate lives."